wHeRe aRe yoU cHriStMaS?

today is wednesday, december 22nd. 3 days till christmas!

it feels different, though.

so did thanksgiving.

maybe i'm just going through some good ol' teen angst, but it just feels less like a big deal. 

i got presents for friends and family that i'm so excited for them to open, and the tree is beautiful, and our Christmas Eve service at church will be wonderful...but something still feels off.

please comment if you can relate because...i'm not about to go into a whole philosophical paragraph about why i might be feeling this way...but i also am curious to know if this is a regular thing.

then again, it could just be my seasonal depression kicking in.

speaking of seasonal, i came down with that awful head cold i get about twice a year. stuffy nose, watery eyes, hot flashes...gross.

i. hate. being. sick.

well, who doesn't.

and for some reason, it had to be today, of all days, when i was planning on going ice skating with a friend i haven't seen in a while.

murphy's law.

not really, i'm just being dramatic.

writer's block has struck yet again. i'm currently writing a novel. well, i have beginnings for multiple novels, but since school started i've been focusing on the the one.

until lately.

so, the main one is a teen fiction novel. it's about six friends, high schoolers, 3 boys and 3 girls. it has six parts to it, one from each of their perspectives. it's been fun to write, i've just been...stuck.

see, when i first started writing, it was just random scenes that would come to mind, and i'd jot them down, out of place and messy and with no end or beginning. then i started connecting the pieces, adding on little bits to the chunks already written. that didn't really get me far.

now, i'm stuck. writer's block is just a cliche, but it's a nice phrase. really rolls off the tip of your tongue.

no, that's not the real problem, the problem is that my writing energy is being used up elsewhere. 

for my other book.

the AUDACITY.

well, tbh, book #2, i did start writing book #1 first.

i know. drama.

book #1 is a fantasy novel. it's about-well, i don't want to spoil it by describing the whole plot, but it's about young people who try to save their world.

sounds boring. it's not. i'm just not good at describing things without giving the whole thing away lolz my b.

actually though, i'm not even writing that book, i started writing the sequel.

betrayal at it's finest, fam.

it's been fun. just sort of counter-productive.

to whoever reads this, i hope your winter break is glorious and less uninteresting than mine ;)

willow